Writing a letter

Dear You,

I'm writing this as a cathartic way of letting it all out. I don't know what this letter will accomplish. It may be nothing.

I just wanted to say that I love you.

I always hoped you would notice me. We met, hung out, became closer. And then I realized I had fallen in love with you. I thought about you all the time and couldn't get you out of my head.

I didn't want to be in love with you. Being in love with you hurt.

I had to hide my true feelings from you because I knew if I told you how I felt, it would cause me to lose you as a friend. You didn't feel the same way about me. I always told myself I was ok with it, but deep down, I knew I was lying.

I prayed to God every night that these feelings for you would go away. And every morning, they'd still be there just as strong.

I love you for changing my life. Thanks to you, I have done things that I would have never done. You gave me the confidence to make those changes. I had someone who seriously believed in me and I am forever grateful.

But now you've moved on. I thought maybe that would help me get over you. Just the opposite. Now you're with someone new and I'm not even a blip on your radar. Now I'm jealous. Now when I think of you, I still get that tingling feeling but now it quickly turns to pain and I see the reality that you're not there anymore.

I think this is the first time I've truly experienced the ups and downs of love. It hurts, but I'll move on. I don't know when, but I know that I can.

Sincerely, Me

Lenny Kravitz - Can't Get You Off My Mind
James Carrington - Ache
Wilco - I'm The Man Who Loves You
T.V. Carpio - I Want to Hold Your Hand